All My Worries Are Blue (2023) is a visual essay about the quiet struggles of forming and sustaining relationships as an adult who grew up with parental alcoholism. The project began with a note I found in an old notebook, a line my close friend had written years ago: “my worries are all blue, scared of the weights you fear too, I’d rather swallow it up myself, than have you deal with it another day.” It echoed something I had long felt but never spoken aloud.

This moment of recognition became the seed of the project. I asked my friend if they would model for me, not just as a subject, but as someone who understood the emotional terrain we were exploring.

Using cyanotype, a fragile and imperfect process, I created a series of images that reflect the emotional patterns we often carry: silence, distance, the fear of being too much or not enough. The blue tones echo a sense of melancholy, but also care: a desire to witness, not dramatise.

This work is deeply personal, yet not solely about me. It is about how early experiences can echo into adulthood, particularly in our attempts to love and be loved. All My Worries Are Blue is a space to hold those echoes gently to honour vulnerability, friendship and the slow, unfinished process of healing.